Ok, Gonna Accept The Reality.

The new phase of life after college are not really easy.

There's so much things to adapt again.

There's so much things to think again.

So, this is how it feels to be a mature human, huh?

When I understand, I can't get back to the college phase and had to leave all of my memories there.

Feeling like difficult at first.

Feeling so lonely at first.

But, this past few days I kinda learned.

I have to accept the reality.

Not all people always stay with me.

But, I can try to adapt again and makes new friends, or stay with my old friends that still care to me too.

Even if we're only can talks via online, it is okay too.

When meeting up with the new friends irl, I also learned that's how life works.

Wether they leave you, or you leave them. Or both of you and them trying to maintain and stay together.

Afterall, this dunya is only temporary. Yes, that temporary.

To think how many people that already leaving us to their grave?

That's more hurts than people who're just leave in dunya.

The case is... Just don't put high expectations on someone. 

And trying to be the best version of you, who's stronger for your ownself. And with Allah's permission, you can be strong. Even if it only yourself.

But also, don't trying too hard for doing everything alone. 

That you can loose yourself, so still trying to seek for helps if you need.

You're a socially creature that depends on other people.

So, go in the middle from both of that.

Not really depends on people, but if you're not really strong enough, try seeking helps from 'em. 

Only the easy one that they can help.

Yeah that's it, it's only a wild thoughts that I don't know what I really wanna say. But it's satisfying to know I am getting better each and each day.. Alhamdulillah biidznillah.

—Rihlatul-Amal

Wednesday, June 28, 2023.

At Mataram.